I'm so tired of life and I can't really escape the feeling anymore. Moved to a new part of the state 3-4(?) years ago, and haven't made a single real friend outside of small talk connections with people at work or the gym. There's honestly no great meetup groups or anything like that. Dating (or at least trying to date...) has obliterated my hope in others and wrecked my esteem. It feels hopeless at this point that a guy like me, even though I'm not at all bad looking and in 10 times better shape than guys half my age with all boxes checked in terms of being a catch, will ever meet anyone with the way our current dating culture is. So much disappointment in getting stood up and flaked on all of the time, and wasting a lot of energy only to get nowhere with it all.

There's also no music scene in this area either anymore, and I at least was able to stay connected to something through social media means, but ever since the TikTok and Spotify eras took over in the way people connect online about music, it's very disconnected nowadays. Atop of that, all my friends got married this summer or at least are in serious relationships, and I've got nothing. I feel really alone and sweating how I'm only getting older and won't have anyone once my parents pass away since my sibling lives on the other side of the country. I just don't feel like going on anymore.