I'm at a point now where I've been doing this so long that I forget I even got a HJ that morning. I was just going about my day, then I remembered right before going to bed that 8 hours ago I was getting milked by a middle-aged woman with broken English in a stinky massage parlor. I am so deep in the AMP game that a HJ is just part of my routine, it seems, and I don't know if that is a good thing lol.

I am only 33 but have been doing this since I was about 25, and I'm pretty sure it stems from my porn addition at a young age. I can remember watching porn from the age of 17 and how I loved watching massage videos about men and women getting seduced.

It is crazy how you can go from that to this in no time. This is really a drug, and no matter what we say, it is very hard to stop. Am I mad about it? No, not really! I just find it amazing how easily I can pretend something didn't happen that is out of the norm.

Is anyone else in my same position?