M27 NYC Diagnosed at 17 with hsv. I’ve battled with depression and my self worth. I became very introverted over time due to some experiences and I managed to convince my self that no woman would ever want or love me. I can’t pursue anyone because of the guilt I feel and I’m not ugly so I’m pursued sometimes but it never goes well when I disclose my status. I never ask anyone to put themselves at risk for me but some claim to be willing to do things safely until it’s time to actually be in contact with me. I’d appreciate any advice offered on safely courting with unexposed individuals, meeting other hsv positive individuals, what to expect from outbreaks(only ever had a coldsore) and staying positive in general about life.