I got my LEEP during the summer and am really hoping things are cleared up soon. It’s been about 4 years since my first abnormal pap at age 21.

I’ve disclosed to any new partners and haven’t really had any rejections besides a girl I dated not wanting to go all the way. Men seemed to be less discouraged.

I went on a really good date tonight and he reached out to talk about scheduling another one. My mind already goes to what happened if and when I disclose.

Honestly I disclose only for my own peace of mind. It would eat me alive mentally to lie by omission and I’d inevitably tell them out of guilt. But it really sucks. I know that I shouldn’t disclose until things get more intimate, but I hate the idea of getting increasingly more invested then dropping this potential bomb on somebody. I hate how men aren’t tested for this and even if they are told they may have it , have some plausible deniability as they can’t be tested.

It just sucks and makes me even more anxious when dating.