Hello all,

I thought that I would turn to this community for this rather unorthodox query and see if I could get any valuable insights and/or advice on what to do with this predicament of mine.

I received some very helpful and kindly advice regarding this in a previous post on a separate subreddit, which has helped a lot as I was a bit of a wreck and now that I am in a bit of a better place and am feeling a little bit more grounded, I wanted to get some fresh perspectives from those who also suffer from the same affliction.

I'm a 29 year old chap who has just recently discovered that he has (and pretty much has always had) HPV. Quite late to discover eh?

To put things into context, I have had no sexual partners in my life, in large part due to embarrassment and shame over the unsightly warts on my penis. As such, my teenage years and 20s have been unfathomabley lonely and I suffer from depression as a result of this. There's a good deal I could go into there, but it's not immediately relevant to all this, as I'm trying to move on with my life and am looking to the future.

Throughout the course of my life, I have been to the Doctor's numerous times and had (as it turns out) been missdiagnosed as having milia (milk spots) on my penis and told that they would go in time. I also have them under my eyes too.

Time and time again I attempted to get treatment on The NHS and time and time again Doctors refused to refer me and told me to change my diet and wait for the spots to clear.

A few weeks ago, I had enough and used a significant chunk of my savings (in the ballpark of £1000) to get the 7 largest ones removed at a dermatology clinic and while I do have to go back to get rid of the smaller ones too, I am happy with the results thus far, though my penis is still healing and will be a bit scared for a short time more.

Anyway, it was during this consultation that I was told by the Doctor that it was not milia on my penis and in fact genital warts. This came as some surprise to me and I was very alarmed (how could have this happened if I'm a virgin, because of this affliction no less?).

After getting back home, I went to visit my Mother to drop something off at her that night and I mentioned the treatnent I had just received and my newfound diagnosis.

To my stunned horror, she just very nonchalantly stated that the warts would have been from her, as it turns out due to HPV, which I have come to learn is really rather rare, but not outright impossible to get from one's Mother.

It sounds ridiculous I know, but I can't help but feel quite let down by both her and The various GPs I have seen over the years as I have had this warts since I was 9 and I have received no actual help, instead having to fork out what will ultimately be well over 1k of my own money to get this fixed and that's not even taking into account the HPV virus itself.

It has rendered my 20s as a complete write-off, where it seems that everyone else had all the fun and love in their lives, I.was left in the sidelines stuck with a botched dick which would understandably turn any prospective partner off.

Looking foward however, I am now making a concerted effort to move on and do feel a little bit better thanks to some positive community interaction I had on a previous post somewhat related, I am still rather pissed off about the whole thing and really do feel rather cheated, but I am going to make sure that I can now lead a happy life and not be too bitter about the whole thing, looking to keep my goals and aspirations in mind, so that my 30s are filled to the brim with fun and excitement!

I want to get out there, start dating and hopefully find the woman of my dreams. I'm not promiscuous and above all else just want to be happy and really have some fun with a partner, do some borderline crazy shit to make up for lost time :D

My issue now is that I really don't know how to transition into the world of dating, asking woman out and perhaps most importantly, adapt to having sex. There's quite a lot of wrought emotion pent up in me and to be perfectly honest with you all I don't know how that's going to manifest.

I'm in a difficult spot, but don't really have anyone I can talk to about this and therefore repress emotions relentlessly. I was hoping to find someone/some people who could perhaps shed some light on what my next best steps are as to be perfectly honest with you all, I'm completely clueless when it comes to matters concerning sex, relationships and how living with HVP effects that.

I'm so ignorant about the whole thing that I don't even know if it's worth going to a sexual health clinic to get myself checked on the status of my HVP, or if it can even be extinguished.

The last thing I want to happen is to go to all this effort to fix my dick so that it actually looks presentable, only for me to end up giving this terrible affliction to someone I love.

My minds everywhere concerning this, so any advice, or help would be most appreciated.

If somehow you have stuck with my meandering musings here, my sincere thanks to you!

I very much hope that all of you are afforded some luck and resolve concerning how HVP effects you in your lives.

Cheers :)