Hi guys, last year I vowed to get off this sub and never come back.. but I feel like I need to share my progress and hopefully inspire you all to stop fighting our reality.

I got HPPD from mdma in 2019 when I was 20 years old just after I left my original university for bad grades. I was crushed. I moved back home with my parents and went to a community college in hopes of getting my life back on track. Navigating this major life change all while battling debilitating anxiety and learning to deal with my HPPD diagnosis was extremely challenging. It was one of the lowest points of my life.

I obsessed over my HPPD and would spend hours on this sub trying to find a cure. It only made me more miserable and anxious. The only way I could get on with my life is by accepting my fate and just letting go. I vowed to leave this sub and never come back. I focused on what I COULD control- my perspective, my effort in school, getting a job (I also ended up getting my dream job during this time, spending time with friends, eating healthier & working out, etc. I basically was just trying to evolve into a better person and grow from this. I didn’t want to let HPPD define me.

Anyways fast forward to yesterday afternoon- I received my acceptance letter to my top school. I felt so much relief.

From being at the lowest point in my life and bringing myself out of the depths of despair to now being on cloud nine. Everything I worked so hard for finally paid off. I didn’t let myself become a victim to HPPD. I learned to live with it and befriend it.

I’m writing this in hopes to inspire you all to get off this sub. Stop obsessing over HPPD or trying to find a cure. You need to learn to accept it and move on. Once you start accepting it, the severity of it actually lessens. I know this isn’t what you want to hear and it might sound harsh, but trust me it’s true. If I can get through this, so can you. HPPD isn’t a death sentence. It’s more annoying than anything else. There is so much more to life than obsessing over what we can’t control.

Forgive yourself. Let go. Life is too short.

TLDR; After a year and a half of having HPPD and learning to live with it I got accepted into my top school.