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Okay, so like I need to know that I'm not alone here. So ever since I was a kid, I've been watching porn. Since the 5th grade I believe. It wasn't until high school or maybe even early college I think, that straight porn had become boring to me. So out of curiosity I started watching gay porn and tranny porn. It was new, it was different, so I was able to masturbate with excitement again. At first it was just nothing more than a little thought I could brush away. "does watching this make me gay?" Ha! Nope. It was that easy before. But a couple of days ago I literally had my first anxiety attack. The thought grew over the years I guess, and suddenly, I started crying at the thought of being gay, I was scared, I kept telling myself that night I'm not gay I'm not gay. I'm straight. I'm in love with my gf. I've never had any attraction to a guy unless I was watching porn. Now I'm constantly having a mental battle. I've read around thatany straight people watch gay porn, and that they say what you watch does not translate to what you feel in the real world. I told my gf and she was so supportive, I literally thought I was gonna lose her but I couldn't help but laugh in reassurance when she said "what you watch on your phone is non of my business and quite frankly nobody else business either", but still.. I want to know if anyone else got this because of porn.
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