I feel so guilty and ashamed that lately I haven’t had much of a sex drive with my partner, but have been having sex dreams (about other people) quite often. And I understand and accept everyone has attractions to other people and fantasies even in a monogamous relationship, but it makes me feel sooooo uneasy that I feel like my body would respond faster and more with a different partner. Big ugh. I still find my partner extremely sexy and love being intimate with them, but it’s obviously gotten really complicated over the years. My brain and body shut it down whenever I feel turned on around them. I feel so guilty for desiring an open relationship and not having explicitly told them that. Like I am lying and being a fraud by having these thoughts and not telling them.