I used to post in this group, the HL group and the DB group but I had to take them down due to my LL creating a Reddit. I use these places to vent because I truly have no one else to talk to so I didn’t need him seeing the stuff I have said about him and us online. Now he’s no longer on Reddit because he has given up social media and I don’t have to worry about him finding my stuff.

Anyways…

Things had seemed to be getting better back in January he started working out and has lost like a total of 80 pounds since then. His sex drive had increased and for about 3-4 months we were having sex most nights. Then in around April he started a new job working nights that didn’t effect us to badly we were having sex still around 3-4 times a week so I was happy (we’ve never hit my goal of 3x a day but when you go from once every few weeks or so I’m not going to complain) then I went from my night shift position to day shift and things had changed a little we were still having sex roughly 3x a week on his nights off he’d wake me up between 2am-4am for sex and I’m okay with that I don’t mind being woken up for sex even when I work that day. Well now for like the last month or so we have been fighting so much and sex has just dwindled down…

It’s been 14 days almost since I have gotten anything but in those 14 days he’s gotten head twice without reciprocating anything. I’ve tried to have sex on the days he works but I’m met with rejection because he’s tired and works that night. Which kinda pisses me off cause the days we do have sex I work… I work 6 days a week and my only day off I spend grocery shopping and cleaning our house because he doesn’t do much if anything around the house. He works 40 hours a week 4 nights a week and is off Tuesday through Thursday I work 56 hours a week Monday through Saturday but that doesn’t seem to make any difference for him.

I know my thoughts are probably all over the place but it’s been a rough 4 days or so cause it’s been constant fighting. He’s started running around with friends on his off days either while I’m sleeping which is fine or after I’ve went to work and he won’t go to bed until after Noon so he’s sleeping till 8pm or so and not spending any time with me but then cussing and complaining about his night shift job and how it’s not worth working because we don’t spend time together and when I point out that when it comes to me/things he needs to do he says he has to sleep but when it comes to things he wants to do he’ll stay up and sacrifice his sleep and time with me to do those things. So we’ve been fighting so much lately and it takes so much out of me.

I am such a no confrontational person, i am a people pleaser and it just drains me to be constantly fighting and on edge around him and trying not to piss him off it’s just exhausting. There’s more I can say but my brain is tired and I just want someone to talk to that isn’t going to tell me to leave him. I’m not leaving plain and simple and that’s my choice