For the last month, I had been thinking that I would have to end things. I kept picturing my life beyond, preparing emotionally (not that you can lol), etc. Mentally pretty checked out of the relationship. When we had that talk, they said some things that changed the situation for me: 1) that they genuinely wanted to be more playful and less serious like me, and prioritize pleasure and fun more. 2) that they don’t feel pressured, that they do just want to give me what I need 3) that they want to try doing all of these things, plus having a scheduled “playtime” every evening. The scheduled playtime wouldn’t necessarily be sex but could be BDSM or cuddling or making out or some sort of touching. So I said yes, let’s try all of those things! It’s only been a few days. They have kept their promise of playtime. But I’m having trouble recalibrating. I still feel very checked out. I was half looking forward to being single, and now feel kind of, I don’t know. Disappointed? Even though I know I’d fuck around for a month and have fun and then be devastated and lonely as fuck. I also am having a hard time getting turned on because my brain has been protecting itself and not getting aroused around them. Big sigh. Has anyone else been here? Help?