I've spent my whole life craving human touch and affection, but I'm never good enough.

Parents? Too emotionally stunted to notice or even care, especially since I could never be the daughter they really wanted.

Women? Only if they want something (non-sexual) from me, then I get tossed away like a piece of garbage. They say "it's what's on the inside that counts," but if you're an ugly troll like I am, good luck getting your foot in the door.

I didn't lose my virginity until I met my (first, only, and current) GF at age 26. She told me that my inexperience didn't matter, how she wanted to help me make up for lost time. Of course it didn't last because I suck at sex, I suck at being attractive, and I suck at life. I just live to disappoint, I guess.

But I still get cuddles, and kisses, which is a hell of a lot better than nothing. Or at least better than going months and months without so much as a brief hug, and even then I'd have to ask someone for it. I don't know what I'm going to do if and when those disappear, too.

I feel like a dirty, mangy dog at the shelter hanging out alone at the back of the cage, the one nobody wants because it's too old, decrepit, and uglier than sin. At least they get put out of their misery at some point.

No remarks needed from the peanut gallery, thanks. I know I'm a piece of shit and I deserve this somehow, you don't have to tell me.