We will talk about so much and share a connection.. but I feel that the longer I go without feeling wanted, the less I want to spend as much time with her as I do.

Our communication continues to build and we get over hurdles, but we don’t seem to get back to the topic of sex, and if we do, I’m bringing it up. Maybe I’m not great at it, but it doesn’t seem to go far. She doesn’t want to get lewd she says, and just wants to have nice conversation.

I can feel my frustrations building and I might just give myself more space. We aren’t officially dating. We are very close.. we usually talk for a few hours every day, sharing our feelings, things about our day, values. She’s currently seeing two other men, just for sex occasionally and I’m trying to sort out my own jealousy. I’m also still flirting around but not connecting and getting a release with someone. Maybe my lack is just in not having a connection and a release with anyone (not just her).

It does not help that we often don’t have the privacy to get into something together. She is very busy. Neither of us have much privacy at our places, which doesn’t foster a sexy environment. I guess I’m just feeling the lack, and I’m complaining.