SEMI-LONG POST AHEAD

Hi everyone first time poster here but a big fan of the show ever since.

I used to hate Ted I think I still do, mainly because I think he's weak, he does irrational things, and he does everything too hard. I think I hate him bc I can see myself in him. I've never felt so called out on a character before.

My ex and I used to think we were the Marshall and Lily type, and recently told me that I give Marshal vibes, which I was so happy to hear bc I've been trying to do well and better in the relationship, and Marshal kind of became my role model. And now, recently, she found someone new, which I really can't take it; I feel depressed as shit now, and I feel fucked up. So I feel like I'm more like Ted now. The love of my life just went away like Robin. Sure, she has someone new, but I'll be here forever, wanting her. I don't even know if our "If we're 30 and still have no one in life, let's be together" pact will come true lol.

Edit: idk posting this seemed irrational too lol, forgive me, I rlly just have no one to talk to with things like these and things I can open up to this much