I’m undecided whether the term “trans” fits me. I’m a womxn, so non binary/GNC/woman adjacent, which I guess is not cis, right? Day to day I just say woman because no one cares/needs to know the intricacies of my identity in most situations. I’m investigating whether or not I’m actually intersex, and being AFAB was an incorrect assignment. Which would then make my gender in alignment with my sex (intersex and non-binary)?

I want a more feminized body than I currently have, but with some virilization. I have naturally high T levels (diagnosed PCOS but personally I’m undecided on that) so I grow a beard, plus sweat like a male. Sadly I don’t have any bottom growth from it. In my dreams, I’d feminize everything, but hope that doing estrogen to feminize, but maybe topical compounded T gel plus pumping would get me some bottom growth. I’m lost.

Is this the right community for me? I don’t want to take up space if this isn’t the community for me. Just trying to find folks with common struggle.

(Should be noted: establishing care with a queer health center next week. Hopefully they get it.)