My mom passed away in January after a long illness. She was my best friend until the sickness started to eat at her . She started taking it out on me and making me feel terrible . I was in the mist of some major things myself but trying to talk to her was no an option . All I got was what do you want me to do about it . So I stsyed away I had to or I was going to die . This lasted about 6 months and she had a surgery that the drs said she was just not going to recover from and the recommend hospice . Me being the good daughter said yes to being 24 hour care giver. Five days in she refused stronger pain meds so was a very hard patient her bf started fights there was no money for bills or to bury her I was so stressed and got covid . 104 fever changing a bed pan being yelled out to move faster I left called hospice and dcf . for the next 3 days the duo blasted me on facebook saying how i left them took all their money and left with no food when my sister dropped off 5 bags of food and i was the one who left with a bottle of apple juice . I got mom back 3 days before she died when the nurse said shes in a comma can we bring to hospice house. The bf never came to see her and continued to make things hard. The long story yes .but now im stuck .I cant get over feeling unloved and worthless by my own mom . I needed my mom and couldnt even tell her because I was afrid I wasnt glong to matter to her . Its the worest feeling not to have closer .