My dad passed away suddenly while traveling alone in Cambodia a few days ago. I live in Canada, my sister is in the UK and the rest of the family is in New Zealand, including my brother and stepmum. So feeling the reality of living abroad right now...

He wasn't found for a couple days after dying and my stepmum requested to have him autopsied because of certain circumstances so they have said it's unlikely they'll be able to embalm him sufficiently for transportation back home, so ultimately we decided to have him cremated there and his remains taken back to NZ.

There is the potential to fly there to see the body before they cremate him but it is very expensive and not the safest or easiest place to go right now, and given that he was already decomposing I think he won't look like himself anymore... But still coming to terms with the fact that I most likely won't get to see his body and not get some of the closure that I think would come from that. My brother is really feeling uneasy about not seeing the body.

Has anyone been through something similar where you haven't been able to or not wanted to see your loved one's body? How do I come to terms with that?