I don’t really even know what to say or why I’m even gonna bother saying anything at all. I’m gonna try, though, because I need to get it out and maybe someone can guide or just talk to me about this.

My dog is basically my best (and kinda only) friend. I’ve had him for 7 years and if it wasn’t for him, I’d be completely alone 99% of the time since my spouse has passed away.

I just assisted him up from the ground. My friend randomly fell to his side when going for a very short walk because he was too weak to get back up by himself.

I feel like an epic selfish piece of shit because I am refusing to let go of him, yet I know he’s having a really hard time as of lately.

I have no idea what I’m going to do, nobody to help me with this or that I can even talk to about it. This is my first dog and my late spouse was the “dog guru” of the family whereas I’m kinda lost on most things.

Thanks for letting me let this out, and to whoever took the time to read this and give a shit.