I’m just so mad at myself. For so many of my life choices. I don’t think I will ever get over it and I think I will live with this regret and grief forever.

I completely gave up on myself. I didn’t even try for my dreams I just gave up. And I know you guys tell me oh you can just go back to school but no, it doesn’t work like that. I don’t have passion anymore I don’t have excitement towards the things I once did. I can’t get it back, it’s just not there. That opportunity is gone and that part of me doesn’t exist anymore. Now I am just a shell of myself with no true goals or interests or belief that I can do anything because I can’t. There are too many obstacles in the way for someone like me who suffers with mental health issues and I’m sick of trying. I don’t feel any purpose in my life anymore I used to think there was so much to look forward to in life but now I just can’t see it. I wish I could go back to 21 year old me and just tell her to just go for it and who cares how much debt you will have and who cares what other people think you are capable of . But I can’t get back that time and now I’m stuck in a job I hate at a company I hate even more.