While I was inside the bathroom, I heard my mom talked to my boyfriend that she often feels she doesnt have a purpose after my father died.

Growing up, my mom gave up working and raised us 3 siblings while also supporting my dad’s needs. When my sister eventually purchased a 500sqm lot in a 2 hour away drive province, that lot has became their playground. They plant there, they try to builf anything they want or can.

So when my dad passed, my mom lost a partner that will do provincial things with her. Both of my siblings are working overseas, and it’s just me and my mom.

Currently, I am supporting my mom’s medications, and food/ utilities, and also paying for rent. I started working after my father passed… and my salary is just enough monthly.

I overheard that ‘money’ seemed to be an issue since going to the province entails allowances for commute, food, etc. She said to my boyfriend that she gets bored inside our condominium and would love to go to the province as much as she can because she enjoys the place so much.

Currently, I have this guilty feeling that I am not giving enough. Or want to give me more, but I cant. I am saving up for myself to take several exams as I plan also to work overseas.

I love my mom so much. I want her to do the things that she want but I am limited now. And giving her allowances would eat up my savings. I dont know what to do.