A little over a month ago my girlfriend of 3 years passed away due to complications of her disability. We meet in college and even graduated together with the same degree. We were planning many life experiences and events together even planning to get married with me being so so close to proposing to her before her passing. Since her passing it has been extremely difficult for me to deal with her passing and the grief process. I recently thought I may be able to get back to dating even meeting a girl in person. We had a wonderful conversation and connected on a personal level even with me only speaking little about my girlfriends passing. She was so amazed by her even wishing she could meet her. Unfortunately she completely ghosted me afterwords. Now to add to the frustration we had many friends who checked in with me on the following 2 weeks after her passing even with some friends who I don’t speak to often. Thay all told me I could reach out anytime and just talk if I ever needed it. But now I try to reach out to them and I get absolutely no response. Nothing but radio silence. I feel like nobody will respond to me want to talk to me or even have anything to do with me. Now to add icing on the cake I’m dealing with the frustration with wanting intimacy/sexual relationship. I feel like I could hookup with a friend but my thoughts are all over the place. I know there are stages of grief but for me they are emotions you go through and I basically feel like I’m in the anger emotion of this. It’s been hard for me dealing with all of this and especially changing every aspect of my life. So any thoughts?

P.S. I am actively working with a grief counselor for help.