And sure, theyre living the high life, i have nowhere to go, live, sleep, lost all friends, had a childhood full of fatalities and many injuries to myself and others. Drugs are in every part of business, for me to say 'no' is ridiculous, but i think id rather be dead than to be a part of a family if it means tolerate their control freak behaviors, and be second to their substance use/deals, including guns, i am not a slave, but its more like " liberty or death..." What to do, what to do, what i have done is landed at rock bottom, and cut relationships w/anyone causing aggravation. Moved so much i lost friends, and never had any, they were just acquaintances. More ppl knew me than i knew of...