It was my first Christmas without my mom... Just me and my dad. I don't have a ton of friends... My best friend lives in The US and she did check up on me. She does every day actually and I am grateful to have her in my life. The two friends I have here didn't reach out. I was the one, who finally at 2pm on Christmas, messaged and wished them a Merry Christmas. Not a how are you doing? Etc Same online... I have met so many friends online through going to concerts etc and they were all distant this year. What hurts the most I think is that I still see these people interact with each other. Two of them lost their beloved pets this year and then they were in my DMs to ask for money to send them a custom painting of their pets... I guess for them my mom wasn't as important. It just really hurts. It's like the moment she passed away I stopped existing for them.