When I go to cvs I still use your phone number for rewards.

Your name is on the receipt and it makes me happy and sad at the same time.

A tiny bird spent all of today looking in my windows. I opened TikTok and there was a weird witch lady saying she was channeling a woman and that the tiny bird was her. We’re going to pretend that was you and not that my phone listens to my every thought.

I lived through today, kind of.

Still doing really weird things. Don’t want to be alone. Feel super far away from everyone ever. Even if someone is sitting here next to me I don’t think I would feel less alone.

I got high out of my mind, and laughed about nothing.

I found a new band tonight.

I listened to it analytically tonight.

I hope you can’t see what’s happened to us. I hope you don’t know how sad we are. How broken and lost we are. I hope where ever you are, this is kept from you.

Next year is going to come and you’re not going to be in it. There are already so many things you’ve missed. I’d give anything to go back, go forward with you here. I wish you were younger. I wish I had had more time. Life is so weird now.