I found out a few days ago my ex killed himself, I haven’t been able to start crying. We were friends longer than bf/gf. We’ve stayed in touch since. He had bipolar and drug issues. He struggled a lot and was dealt crappy cards in life. He confided in me a lot about stuff he didn’t tell many. He had a confident attitude he displayed to everyone, many didn’t take it well. No one’s talking about it, no one seems to care. I’ve been beside myself the past few days. I feel guilty. I would always answer his messages when he was manic or reaching out. I always tried to get him to go back to therapy or rehab and he would listen most of the time. I don’t know why he didn’t reach out this time. I feel so awful, I feel like I failed him, I feel like I was just another person who didn’t care enough to care about him. I know I did, but I’m sure he didn’t think so. It’s like he just disappeared and no one noticed, but I noticed and I feel guilty for being angry at him. I’ve attempted myself, he knew of those times too. He was finally staying sober, he was getting the family he wanted. He had a baby and a beautiful girlfriend and he abandoned them when he was finally doing well. He’s just gone now. He had so much more to offer. He messed up, a lot, but it wasn’t anything he couldn’t overcome. He’s just gone and he didn’t even reach out