So into the void if you’re listening mom, we did the best we could with E’s birthday yesterday. 21 is a big one. I brought you up at dinner and was basically scolded. I like to talk about you. I miss you. I want to tell you about all the things. M has a girlfriend. Can you believe it? My son. He went from no way in September remember? But by the end of school it’s all girls girls girls. Right now I should be telling you all this. I need you. Your advice. Your comfort. You were the only one who truly listened to me. And damn if I didn’t miss the birthday call yesterday for E. Who am I without you. I’m winging it. I love you and miss you so much.