It’s been 8 fucking years and I have had 2 relationships, become a mother, gone through numerous other hardships.. and when I can’t sleep, when everyone else is asleep, when no one is texting me back.. it hits me just as hard as day 1.

When I realize that this Sunday is the day we should be celebrating our 9th wedding anniversary, but instead- I’m crying alone on the couch wishing I could talk to you.

I’m so lucky that I got to experience true love in my life, but I’m worried I’ll die before I ever feel that depth of love, towards me, ever again.

I miss you so much and I can’t believe how badly it still hurts when I need you around. I give so much love but I need it to come back around to me, please. I hate this and I miss you so much.