So, I've lost 5 friends since March of 2021 (the first two weren't unexpected, the last 3 were). The most recent of which being my best friend of almost 14 years who died of an overdose 2 months ago. On top of that, my grandma died unexpectedly in January. She was only 70, I lived with her/my now 12 year old son had lived with her his entire life. We were always very close, and now my other grandma (who is only 67) is dying of cancer.

I feel really alone in dealing with all of this. I've had a really hard past couple days and I've been missing my grandma a lot, crying a lot etc. I try to talk to my (possibly now ex) partner about it and I really don't get any kind of emotional support. He hasn't really dealt with anything like this before so I know he can't relate but I feel like he isn't there for me at all. I'm more supportive/there for him during minor shit like when he had a cold than he is for me when I just want to feel like I matter to him at all 😭😭

I'm just venting I guess/not really looking for advice. I do have an appointment for an evaluation to get into therapy but the appointment isn't until 2 months from now (I had to wait like a month and a half before I even got a call to schedule an appointment- gotta love the US healthcare system 🙄)