omg so I ended up ubering out and going shopping yesterday. Of course, I secured a hook up, we met at the mall I went to. Kinda had to do it this way because I live at home with nosy conservative parents that don’t approve of my sleeping around… who also think I’m a lesbian still and it just feels hard to communicate my change in sexuality right now, I’m kind of embarrassed for fighting so hard for a label that isn’t me. But anyway! It was the perfect plan to go out and get the cock I’ve been craving.. and then, I met him.

Such a sweet guy. He was really cute, not really my type but had a certain charm. But he didn’t fuck me… we did a little car play in the parking lot of a bookstore. I was so excited. He was sucking on my tits, telling me how big they are and how excited he was to see them in person from my pics.. fingering me, saying “I can tell you like that.” as I moan and sigh and lose my mind of desperation

Finally, we were going to do piv and he keeps rubbing his cock on my cunt, playing with my clit and torturing me. Every time he gets near my entrance I would beg, “please, please!” and nearly nothing would happen. I wonder if he did this on purpose… he did say “I could torture you like this forever.”

But.. he just didn’t fuck me. Kept cramping up or slipping out. Small car, not a lot of space, but he swore he’d done it before and it’d been fine. I was really sad, so horny and cockhungry and desperate to breed. He kept saying “I won’t force you to do anything, we can just sit and talk if you want. We can try again at a hotel sometime!”

Really sweet of him… really. But god. I’m sex crazed and I just wanted some dick.

Luckily my dildo comes today