This would be so humiliating and degrading, and so far away from normal vanilla healthy sexuality.

It’s degrading not even having a real person, and then a female sex toy, not even a make one. That’s got to mess with your head. The denial, degradation and humiliation of being seen to do this too, even recorded.

Maybe there's an element of emotional masochism or beta mindset. Maybe you react even more if you think of the doll as being a girl that you hate - a girl that bullied you at school, or the girl your boyfriend cheated on you with.

Maybe there's a performative aspect - you'd be doing it for a man who was coercing you or having you perform for the webcam..

I’d like to chat with a girl who understands this, it’s a strange new idea I can’t get out of my head lately, but it’s so hard to find a cis girl who it resonates with. Maybe here..

https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5fac5fa48a092