i broke up with my ex of three years last year and almost immediately after that was back on the apps and the dating scene, but after a series of situationships, the monotony of swiping, getting my heart broken twice and after a particularly bad date that icked me so badly a few weeks ago i haven't been back on the apps, especially because i finally built a pc around that same time a few weeks ago and got back into gaming!

right now i'm catching up with genshin after taking a year long break plus doing a first play through of cyberpunk 2077, and i'm having so much fun just getting lost in the open worlds for hours but at the same time i can't help but have this nagging feeling that instead of spending so much time at home i should be going out to meet guys especially since i just turned 30... can anyone else relate? it's been the first time in awhile where i actually don't feel like talking to guys and getting validation from men since i'm having so much fun gaming but at the same time i also can't help but feel guilty and wonder if i should spend my time putting myself out there instead of being holed up in front of my monitor ☹️