Edit: it seems I just couldn't give it enough time. After spending a few days on the gifted community, I realize many people relate to me. And I relate to many of the stories written here. I was so desperate for understanding when I made this post, the emotions exploded. I only realized I was gifted a few months ago. I still need time to process it, it seems.

I feel so hopeless, so lost, so desperate, and lonely. I often question myself on so may aspects of my life. This leads to many theories that I want to share, hoping others would relate or understand. I always start by telling the closest person around me like friends or family. I often feel I annoy them. I often feel they don't get what I'm saying. It feels my idea are always so far-fetched.

So I often end up on several reddit communities, trying my best to explain my situation and ask for advice. I'm always shocked by the responses. No one seems to relate. It always seems I have some kind of problem. Recently I was diagnosed and thought that the gifted reddit was it. I learned how gifted people could struggle in life because of their ideas and creative minds. I thoughts perhaps I could find people who relate, that I could finally feel understood. Only to learn it's the same thing here. I got comments saying I'm only depressed. That I am confusing giftidness with something else. Not one person seems to somewhat agree or relate, and I'm starting to seriously question myself.

I feel terrible, angry even. How is it that I never seem to find one person to relate to my story/idea? Perhaps I am just not putting it properly in words (English is not my first language also). Or is that it, am I actually just plain weird ?

I thought I was a well adjusted person, but now I'm in an existential crisis.