I'm 29 now and way back my teacher made me take a little IQ test at school in 2nd grade due to my overperformance and magnanimity and I was then put in a part time weekly gifted program then the year after moved to a magnet gifted school. Okay great, I do all the gifted/advanced stuff in middle school and special medical program in high school where I then go straight to full time college (early college) after 10th grade.

For multiple reasons some obvious at the moment and others only obvious when viewing retrospectively I just completely crack 2 years into University and drop out. I go back a few years later and have a second breakdown and crack again and drop out of school and my internship. COVID hits a few months later and I go into super panic/depressed mode and binge eat and binge smoke and drink and gain weight heavily for the first time in my life.

Now I am just trying to get my life in order so I can spend the next 10 years being somewhat normal. I am currently finally diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Order) which means you are always worrying and can't control the worrying. I was lucky that a girl I was dating at the time a year ago saw I had ADHD symptoms (she was like 11 years older and had seen so many psychiatrists she practically was a doc in training) that she gave me a 100mg SR Bupropion pill to test out if it helped so I could get diagnosed and prescribed.

MY ENTIRE LIFE FLIPPED ON ITS HEAD #######%%%%%%@@@@@@!!!!!!!!!

I have tried all sorts of drugs, cbd, weed, coffee, kava and alcohol for years trying to boost my dopamine levels but they all were so short lived as far as effects go and they had side effects but this was different. It was powerful, continuous and stable. It was pristine clarity, hyper focus, and ability to fully withdraw memories out of my mind like a beautiful catalog I could easily access. The brain fog - GONE. The anxiety - NONEXISTENT. The million thoughts all at once - ORGANIZED IN A NEAT 1, 2, 3 LIST.

I immediately told her "wow I think you just fixed me, I should have taken this drug when I went thru puberty, because now I can see into my mind clearly, don't feel anxious and have such constant hyperfocus but on the RIGHT things. I feel like a GOD thank you!" She just got excited and was happy she could help connect me to a medication and she then helped connect me to a psychiatrist where I was prescribed Bupropion after saying a friend gave me one and it really helps my focus and anxiety issues.

For me when puberty hit all my anxiety and focus issues MULTIPLIED by an order of magnitude. Things only got worse in high school and devolved rapidly in college.

It is only now finally at 29 that I am finally graduating with a computer science degree and it is thanks to now taking Bupropion 100mg SR twice a day once in the morning and once in the afternoon. I can't thank my x girlfriend enough for that but obviously once I was feeling amazing consistently I realized I was not ready to be dating seriously and that I needed to get MY SHIT TOGETHER and was NOW ABLE TO so we ended things amicably and she totally understood why.

Ok soooo ding ding ding heres what has happened to me in the last 3 months!

Pros to Bupropion:

1. Elimination of brain fog.
2. Clarity and on demand control to access memories and all stored information.
3. Ability to be funny at all times and make people laugh.
4. Elimination of generalized and social anxiety.
5. Increased sex drive, sensitivity and strength of orgasm.
6. Rise in confidence levels and social confidence.
7. Ability to hyper-focus on what is in front of you for hours.
8. Elimination of binge eating, binge smoking and binge drinking.
9. Full access to your IQ pros without the high IQ cons.

Cons to Bupropion:

1. You NEED to find the right DOSAGE. 150mg SR makes me feel awful, but 100mg SR makes me feel like Bradley Cooper in Limitless (without the side effects of course lol).
2. There is no two, if you get the dosage right theres only the pros and no side effects.
3. If you did get the dosage wrong you can get side effects as listed by the drug if you bard it.

TL;DR - I was gifted my whole k-12, I went to the magnet schools, did the programs and went to early college, dropped out of college twice, my live devolved and ADHD/focus/anxiety/depression symptoms have gotten steadily worse in the ensuing decade I turned to partying, drugs, alcohol and serial sex addiction to run away from my problems for about 10 years. An x girlfriend of mine saw I had ADHD symptoms and gave me blue 100mg bupropion SR pill and it turned my life upside down, inside out and made me feel like a GOD basically everyday for about 3 months now and still going strong. I am now organizing my disastrous drop outs and graduating with a bachelors in computer science and hopefully have good things coming soon just working on mental health and self betterment and self confidence. I offer this story as proof that the right medication for the right person truly can turn your life 100% around. I was totally a denier of medication cures all but that was just because before my ego got in the way of seeking real help. Everyone needs help but pride interferes. That said my ego and pride is THRU THE FGN ROOF rn so idk what to say about that but it feel freaking good man freaking good. I am making this post to help even ONE more human feel like I do now, because all it took was ONE human to change my life and now its the gift that keeps on giving.

Good luck and comment or dm if you are curious about any of this. I hope it helps at least one person in some way (or many!).