From this minute forward, I want to be the person I always wanted to be in my head. Here is the backstory of who I am:

I'm a 26 year old man that lives in a good city working in sales. I've been in the same company for 2 years with no plans of promotion anytime soon. I have a girlfriend of 1 year and have started hosting events in the city and l also have had one amateur fight so far. I studied engineering and make decent money. Everything is good in my life. My job is fine and I probably can get promoted within the next 6 months. My relationship is fine too and I'm in pretty good shape. It's a very average life and will be a very average outcome to my life. And NORMALLY, l'm a big advocate for this kind of life because you live a good comfortable life and for most people that life is ideal and they work very hard to achieve the comfortableness.

But that's not my case. I achieved everything above relatively easy and could live a normal life for the rest of my life without really putting that much more effort. But I know if I ACTUALLY tried, I can achieve my dream life. I don't want to toot my own horn but I know I'm a great speaker, people connect with me very very well and my empathetic personality makes it easy for people to get real with me. And I'm easy on the eyes which help. I adapt really quickly and I'm a really fast learner so doing all these things in my life is not that much of a challenge.

So why am I struggling to try? What's stopping me from being a cool average person to REALLY living up to my potential is how I was raised. I was raised very timid and in my shell and learnt to stick to the rules and not make yourself the star. But that's not who I am. When I'm confident and in the zone, I'm so quick on my feet I'm old and vocal evervone listens to me, and it's like I'm the centre of the room.

But when I fall back to how I was raised in certain situations, I come off as a timid individual that's scared mentally to say anything. And when I'm at home alone, I lose all the confidence in myself and fall back to me just being a shy student and rot in my room and not give 100% in my off time.

I'm having a hard time letting go who I used to be and becoming who I am meant to be. I want to be that guy that I am during those moments where l'm so confident and in the zone. I've had them and it feels like everything is in my motion. I see it all, I hear it all and everything that comes out of my mouth is just pure poetry. I want to be that guy all the time but I just have to live my life more confidently.

So without going on more of a rant, anyone have any suggestions on how I can just let go of the person I used to be and fully embrace the person I want to be? I appreciate you all for your help