Hello!

This has been week 8 of my 52 week-long attempt to document my progress, in order to be more conscientious with how I’m living my year.

The good:

• This week I've been doing a lot of research on fashion & figuring out my personal style. I've never been very interested in fashion, which is a shame, because it's actually a lot more interesting and fun to learn about than I imagined. Additionally, I've grown tired of wearing the same old things and never really looking or feeling good doing so. But of course it's not enough to just research a subject. I went ahead and ordered a fair amount of new clothes and shoes, and so far I'm happy with how it's coming along. Changing out your wardrobe & finding your style is a lifelong pursuit, but I feel good finally having taken my first shaky steps into the world of fashion.
• This week I learned how to wash my hair properly, which was very random but eye-opening notion. If I put any links in this post I think it won't be allowed to go up, but the guy I've been learning from runs a channel called Blowout Professor. If you're a lady, I highly recommend checking him out!
• It's a small thing, but I've started doing the plank for one minute a day in addition to my normal workouts. I think I get my core worked out as it is, but doing a little bit of exercise even on rest days feels like a win. I've already started getting competitive with myself and holding for a few more seconds over the minute. It's a small thing, but the more I do it, the easier it gets.
• I spent a lot of time socializing this week. There's not much more to say about it, but it has been a great way of decompressing from all the stress.

The bad:

• Because I struggled with anxiety and sleep deprivation last week, it became incredibly difficult to keep up with my usual routine this week. I decided to work out only when I felt like it and try to let my body rest for once, since getting sick would set me back even more.
• I'm very behind on my studies right now and I've been feeling an overwhelming amount of resistance to do anything about it. I suffer from negative self-talk, but I refuse to talk myself out of trying. The more I procrastinate, the harder it's going to be to catch-up.
• I haven't worked a ton on my video, which isn't a surprise since I've been so tired, but it's still a loss. Starting tomorrow and throughout next week I'm going to pick right back up where I left off.

Conclusion:

This week automatically became somewhat of a wash due to last week's failings, but at least I'm not feeling so exhausted anymore. Rather, I'm feeling the positive kind of frustration where you want to hurry up and get your hands dirty, so that you may prove to yourself that you're not a complete failure.

I still have that Excel tracking sheet I made that I want to use, but this week wasn't right to get started with it. I'm still keeping up with the basics like my skin care routine and eating healthy, but I know I can do better. I'm choosing to view these last couple of weeks as a mere bump in road. It happens.

We'll see how things go next week. Until then!