I have 2 essays coming up and im so scared. I have not written a real essay since the end of last semester. Im ok at writing but im a bad researcher in regard to finding scholarly information that im allowed to us. I have to really scavange and i feel like my papers turn out like a disaster and i fear im missing the point of what im reading and that im only getting good grades on my papers cause my professors dont check my sourcse to make sure what i pulled from them makes sense. The language used is intimidating and often hard for me to intrepet. The essays are not the longest think ive ever had to write but im nervous. I made an appointment at the library writing center for advice on researching but im worried they wont be able to help me and will have expected me to already know how to correctly since im junior.

Im really scared and freaking out. Winter break is in a month but i cant stop thinking about those 2 essays.