I finally calmed my imposter syndrome today but something bad happened. I did an assignment, a lab report to be exact and i think i messed it up bad even though i tried my absolute hardest.

Im so frustrated, i want to stay determined but this feels like a slap in the face. I pretty much just got told by the world that trying your hardest will only end in poorly no matter how much effort you put on, some people are destined to fail.

I try to push back my imposter syndrome about myself but tonight i couldnt bring myself to do it, i didnt have any proof im actually competent and smart. I have an exam wednesday I should have studied for more by now and im dreading it after this, i feel doomed.

How do i calm down? I place high value on my intelligence and grades but always feel im falling short no matter how good i do. I wish i was confident and sure of what i know, i wish i could FEEL smart.