I'm a 29 year old Latino male that was ran off of the road where I used to live back in 2022 resulting in me going off of a cliff and flipping my car and being ejected out of the car and having the car roll over the top of me breaking my back is there really any one person that would want to get to know or even give the time of day to someone who is in a wheelchair? Not because they feel bad for me or anything like that but because they genuinely would want a future with me?. And if so where is all y'all lol.. before my accident I never had any problems on dating apps hooking up or anything like that until now that I'm in this chair the initial conversation isn't the problem it's the portion of the conversation where I have to bring up the fact that I am in a wheelchair is when the conversation comes to a dead stop and I'm ghosted it's honestly happened so many times that it's really depressing really makes me hate life I know it doesn't help that I am a silent individual I always have been but I am really even more so a quiet person which is has had me concerned for a while because I can't seem to get out of my head regardless of anything and I tried to avoid situations that have me on spot I guess you would say. I've always had some sort of a confidence issue prior to my accident but it's tenfold now constantly thinking I would want to be with me and you know just if somebody would give me the time of day I probably would be sitting here questioning it and pushing back against it which is counterintuitive from what I really want.. anyways when I get rejected as many times I have been and gotten told some of the s*** that I've been told from the women that did decide to meet up with me it honestly makes me think about the future wonder how I'm going to live another 20 30 40 years like this and I can't just go and off myself in my heart I know that I wasn't meant to be alone I always see myself with two or three kids a home a wife or I'm sorry if this isn't the correct term I'm still fairly new to being on the other side of the fence.. anyways continuing on.. having a trans wife most days I feel like my existence is just a mere joke and on my worst days I contemplate oregons right to die law in a way I do fall into a category listed under the law. Living with a illness that will ultimately bring death quicker then others on top of statistics showing how damaging it is to not be able to walk and constantly sitting for your whole life. As much as I feel like I want to go the easy route I can't do that because I have a son.. all I know is I don't really know how long I got. I just don't want to spend it all regretting everything like I have been for almost the past 2 years and I definitely am finding it really hard to grasp and as hard as it is to get the words out it very well could be a lonely life for me... Maybe if I was more outgoing and I don't know born with guts of steel and had this cocky ass attitude maybe I probably would be better off I don't know.. also I don't need lecturing about any of this I get lectured all the time for my family and from people who are around me because for one you're not in my chair you're not going through what I'm going through and you don't have to disclose any information like I have to which is normally either turn off I don't know what the other word would be but people generally hear about it and nobody wants anything to do with somebody like that or that has anything to do with what I'm talking about but with that being said please don't sit here on my comments lecturing me about oh things will get better and oh blah blah blah because how do you know how do you really know that things are going to get better how do you know it's something's going to come along my way it's not guaranteed not for everybody it's not so if you're going to comment that please take that comment somewhere else cuz I don't want to hear it nothing is certain... anybody got any feedback? any thoughts? anything?