Admittedly this is a vent but I feel so angry and hurt and disappointed and I have nobody to talk to.

I (m 59) have been chatting with a guy (31) for the last several months. We've gone on a few dates and all was well. He was gone to Europe for the summer. We chatted every day. He got back and has been overwhelmed with work trying to finish his degree and moving.

I have been so supportive trying to keep his spirits up, chat with him, not impose on his schedule for dates, etc. trying to be respectful of his non-existent free time. Hoping that as things settle for him we would have time together.

I ask him today if he's going to Pride. He says yes and hopes to meet some guys his own age. That's he's 'truly interested in me but that he thinks I have stuff to solve'.

True in that I am not out, etc which we have talked about. I would come out to my family for him. It's not like we did not already talk about the age gap and families and things. I invested so much emotional energy in him. I asked him weeks ago if he was still interested in seeing me. The answer was yes. I gave him an out then.

I feel abandoned, used, unappreciated and subconsciously hear the message 'you're too old'.

I am not surprised as I was expecting this, but it still hurts. I feel alone and like there's no hope left for an LTR. I have no more energy left to even look.

I'm sorry for the length and the rant.