I guess im bi but only for old men who treat me like im just alive to be their sextoy

Im 18 years old and when im not horny i have zero interest in guys … like i actually find the thought dishustig

But as soon as im horny all i can think about is sucking dick so i download grinder romeo or go to cruising places and please men who are three times my age

For example yesterday i got a bit horny in school went to the bathroom and downloaded romeo the first guy who told me to come ober was the lucky one i went there and let him do Everything he wanted to me because i dont no why bit just cant say no to them

So three hours later im still tied up leaking cum from all holes laying in his bed as he is getting ready for the next round

As soon as i get home i regret everything so so so much but i know in a few days its gonna happen again and i cant do anything about it i just cant control my body and mind

I dont know where this comes from i have watched some gay hypno videos for the last years but thats more lile fetish play and i dont think it really hypnotizes me

Anyways if someone can help please hit me up i cant deal with this guilt feeling while washing the cum out my ass and body