28 new jersey.

I dont even call myself a femboy bc i dont fit in the stereotypical definition of it (petite, bunny ears, etc). Rather im a guy who has a fem side to him aka i am dressed as a "regular" guy in most cases but i like wearing girl stuff in private. I'm gay and dont look very masc but i dont necessarilly crossdress all the time either.

I am done with the hookup culture (please dont message me for sex) but i am looking for something more consistent (i guess relationship or friendship). What's difficult is i am exclusively attracted to masculine men who most of the time are straight /straight identifying which is hard bc they most likely just want sex on the downlow but thats not what i am looking for. Whether in public or in bed regardless of what im wearing, i am always attracted to masculine men while i am the feminine energy.

Someone i could hang out with in public without him expecting me to dress up would be nice. Friendship or relationship is cool, but definitely NOT hookups. Idk if i am making sense but someone cool would be nice. Pls dont be creepy :(