So I'm 43 years old. I've always considered myself bisexual. Since I was 12 I've always had friends that would do sexual things with me. I'd always come up with a reason for it happening, we were drunk or stoned or some other bullshit reason to tell myself instead of just seeing it for what it is. All of my relationships I've had with women in my life have been ruined because of the fact of how much I love cock. My first love, my high school sweetheart, my wife, and even my last girlfriend. They all couldn't handle the fact that I love cock so much. I've been single now for almost 3 years. In those 3 years for the first time in my life Ive had nothing but bad luck and strike outs with females, but not with guys. Never in my life have I ever gone this long without at least hooking up with a girl. I haven't had any problem hooking up with guys though. The more time that goes by and the more guys I hook up with makes me come to the realization that whether I like it or not, I'm gay. All I think about is cock. The only porn I watch anymore or that turns me on for that matter is gay porn. I can't remember the last time I got off to a woman or even wanted to get off to a woman. Yes women still turn me on, but not like cock does. I dream about cock. I dream about getting fucked. I've also noticed the older I'm getting the more I actually want to be gay. I want to be fucked by men all the time and have them cum in my mouth. More than I've ever wanted. I enjoy being gay, doing gay stuff, and I really enjoy it when one of the several girls that are my bffs think of me as gay or tell me that I'm gay. Life is too short to not be honest with yourself. I don't want to be on my deathbed regretting the fact that I tried to hide my gayness my whole life.