Hey guys, been a lurker for some time now but this is my first post here. For as long as I can remember I've always been attracted to dick. Not boys, not men, just dick. I've always considered myself bisexual if I had to put a label on it. I've really come to notice though that the older I get, the more difficult it is for me to keep my dick hard when I'm with a female. It's been a while since the last time I was with a guy but I never had difficult time staying hard for a guy. It makes me wonder am I really just gay and refuse to be honest with myself? I mean if I were gay it's not something I couldn't admit to myself or not be ok with. I mean I love pussy, but I really love dick as well. When I jerk off I think about dick. The porn I watch is almost always fat porn, and lately I've been thinking about maybe finding a boyfriend. But for some reason I just fought with myself about what I really want. I don't know what to do and it's starting to drive me crazy. I guess I just really needed to vent and get that out. Any advice is greatly appreciated.