Basically I have a fetish/fantasy about my boyfriend he's a bottom and without emasculating myself to badly I have performance issues when it comes to anal specifically staying hard enough to please him. We use toys and what not and we do ok but I think due to my issues I have developed a strong urge to find some gorgeous top with a beautiful cock to Fuck my boyfriend silly... He knows about it and we verbally fantasize together but I can tell it's mostly to indulge me

we haven't done anything close to a 3 sum but I always ask him if he thinks a top is sexy when we watch porn together he indulges me as usual but he isn't super into the idea. I'm also a big voyeur fan and dream of watching them Fuck while also directing the top and beyond that as for me participating I imagine myself under my boyfriend while he's bent over the bed being fucked my head at his cock sucking it in full view of his ass while he plays with my cock we tried the position before and I can't wait to do it again (he works out of town).

Anyways I'm curious of anyone else has this or similar fantasy I should add were in a long term monogamous relationship for close to 5 years. He's supportive of me sexually probably more then he should sometimes I feel bad mentioning him getting fucked by someone else but he says he understands. I didn't have much if any interest in 3 sums until about a year or two into our relationship.

I'm off to bed but I'll check everyone's responses in the morning thanks for sharing!