After many attempts, and some cold feet. I, at the age of 39, have sucked my first cock.

I started identifying as bi in my mid to late 20s but my experience was limited. Mostly just online interactions and erotic roleplay. So I've described my self sucking a dick, but never had the pleasure of actually doing so: And over the past 4-5 years, I have desired to embrace being attracted to men more. Including the desire to give a guy a blow job. To that end, I've been hanging out on grinder and here on Reddit to try to make a connection, but meeting up IRL is scary. I do not blame people for getting cold feet, I got them too more than once. But, I wanted to be open to the possibility of it happening. If the stars align and our schedules and situations worked together.

Which happend, today. Here in the states, today is Independence Day (7/4); and as luck would have it I have the day off from work. I woke up to a dm from a redditor I've been talking to on and off. It has been the usual story on reddit: He asks if I want to drain his BBC, and I'm like yeah! He sends a Pic [not sharing] I send one back. He's really close and we're both into it.

This morning I see the dm from him, and he's asking if I wanted to drain him this morning. If you peep my profile you'll find I'm into self-locking chastity play. I'm also on day 18 of a 21 day challenge. So this message got my cage really tight [can share]. But my feet started getting chilly. I hesitated, thinking maybe later today. But he's getting off shift and will be sleeping later. So I wash up and invite him over. My partner works from home so I couldn't host. I met him at his car. First off, I was not prepared for how handsome he was. Like I knew his chest down was hot, but wow. I hopped in his car and we went to a nearby parking lot that had a picnic table near a wooded area.

After a quick glance around, I turned back to him to see he had dropped his gym shorts and an already-large, black cock was waiting for me. I reached out to it to stroke it as I inhaled his scent, cuddling into him slightly as I stroked. He sat down at the picnic table and I dropped to my knees and started kissing his shaft feeling it get bigger, harder. Burying my nose in the stubble around the base of his cock. Then I moved up and took his tip in my mouth and started sucking.

I've seen posts that say once you start sucking cock, you're addicted. And I can totally understand now. Here was a cock for me to pleasure. Not my own dick though, a big cock that I needed to suck. At one point he pushed me down and I almost gagged a little too much, but it was soooo hot. I let him know I had a fear of throwing up and he was totally cool with it and let me do my thing.

Which I did, stroking as I sucked the tip and what amount of the shaft I could handle. I kissed my way down to suck on his balls as I continued to stroke. Then kissed my way back up and resumed working the tip while stroking. He told me he was getting close and I.Wanted.That.Nut. I picked up the pace and did not take my mouth off of him until he started to soften after cumming. It was at that point I realized what i thought was saliva...wasn't. So I swallowed it up.

Afterwards he took me home and let me know that he'd be in touch. I still smell him on my fingers as I type this and it gives me a little thrill.

So after my first time, I kinda think I like sucking cock, like a lot. 20 out of 10, would recommend.