I came out to myself a year ago with prayer and conviction that God really wants me to be with a man. Now I’ve been talking to this wonderful man for over past 4 months and he changed how I see the world and I’ve developed feelings for him.

My mom is very traditional and conservative and we’ve grown up baptist. She and my brother are my only family I have and I love them with all my heart. I also happen live by myself and they live together and we’re very far apart.

Today when I was talking to mom about biblical perspectives on women preaching at churches, I was mildly pleasantly surprised she agreed to that. I never discussed about LGBTQ with her so I was curious what her thoughts were but she doesn’t seems to accept it because the Bible says so in her terms. She’d make an exception for the transgender community because she thinks it’s clearly genetic and that gays and lesbians just happen to be because of attitude and behavior and there’s nothing genetic. I tried to explain that it’s not and how this is observed in animals too.

I am heartbroken because I was hoping that it would be easier for me to come out but it doesn’t seem like it. At this point I really don’t know where my life is headed at and it’s just hard to live by.

On the other side, I’m very new to dating at 28 years and I feel like the gay community is all about sexual compatibility, age, size and well if you’re religious, you’re rejected. Is it even possible to find true love?