I'm okay looking I guess, but probably a bit sheltered or a bit of a dick and with bad social skills. I'm actually a switch and have a lovely sub, but that sometimes makes me feel jealous of him and I don't want to be that. And he's okay with me seeing a dom, less so with taking a dom role for me. But I'm just unable to have any conversations with doms, they always end up being really out there or just fizzle out. Not sure why? There must be something I'm doing wrong.

Anyway, been thinking about alternatives and reasons driving my subby needs.

One option is to use my sub drive at work and submit to my bosses, but that's probably not good given I want to be better than them. Another intriguing alternative is religion, probably something personal or more abstract with a strong masculine figure as the god. Although I don't want to fall into abrahamic religions, they suck balls with their homophobia, anti-abortion, misogyny etc - no offense to anyone reading that believes in abrahamic religion.

So what you guys think? Anyone had any luck at directing their sub drive at something else?