Im newish to BDSM especially with other men. For the longest time I have had this deep erotic desire to submit to a man. I long to be totally degraded, made to suffer, and treated like I’m a dumb slut. I have had a hard time accepting this about myself, I love it and hate it. I’ve had some good sex but never found a good, sane, caring Dom who understood me, respected my limits, and was capable and interested in developing the whore that’s inside of me. I’ve never had romantic feelings for men, I just like the sex. It’s been frustrating having these desires. I desperately need someone to train me, but I also need a connection and deep trust to submit fully. So many men just want what they want for right now and don’t seem interested in developing a great d/s dynamic. I know I could be a fantastic slut for the right man. I’m eager, sexy, love to please, crave suffering and abuse.

How long did it take some of you to get to the point you could freely be yourself as well as find a good partner?