Thank you to everyone who responded to my last post. I ended up going to the hospital the next day because of severe pain in lower and upper abdomen. It wasn’t exactly characteristic of the problems I’ve been struggling with this last month, but the pain was beyond manageable. With the help of some toradol, ducolax, and fluids, i was able to pass over a months worth of constipation in the ER ward bathroom. (im so sorry to the dude who’s room was right next to the bathroom...)

but despite looking the doctor in the eyes and telling him “something is wrong with my stomach” and saying multiple times that i was worried about the fact that i’d been eating less than 300 calories for three days straight, i was discharged once the constipation passed. 🤬 they gave me a GI to get in touch with, and another doctor (who seemed WAY more reasonable but i only saw once T-T) reccomended that i should get an endoscopy. getting admitted into the GI ward was even tossed around a bit in the beginning... but nothing came of that either. all because i managed to take a massive shit.

weighing myself this morning after passing the constipation, i realized i’ve dropped from 135 a month ago to 128 now. i’ve never had my weight go below 134. i know it’s technically not a lot, but it’s shocking to me.

and. the worst part. i’m still SO SICK. still bedridden. still in pain. still nauseas. still unable to eat more than 300 calories.

i tried being assertive. i tried being straightforward. i tried telling them exactly what i thought the problem was!!

called the GI they reccomended this morning. their next availability is early august. called two other places but they couldn’t take me either. one said they’ll try and take me in if there’s a cancellation.

you can kiss my ass if you think i’ll be living like this for another month. but i have no idea how to move forward. i don’t know how to get help?? i can’t eat!! im bedridden!! and i’m feeling really discouraged.