Surgery for bypass is scheduled for 11/28, I’m freaking out. I chose bypass for good standard, it’s been around longer, malabsorption, GERD, more restriction.

For the last 3 weeks I’ve been feeling like I chose the wrong and even that I shouldn’t have surgery. I’m scared for dying during surgery or from post op complications. I have kids and I don’t want them to be without me.

I don’t really feel the sleeve would be as great of a benefit for me personally, but it’s scary that GB is so restrictive and rerouting. I want to be able to eat a sweet from time to time and not have dumping, I know dumping is real but can you eat sweets in occasion and be ok? Not regularly. Does life ever go somewhat back to normal? Can you enjoying having a meal with your family, I’m talking minimum a year later- I know that won’t be anytime soon.

I know my life will drastically change but will it get better?

Backstory, I’ve struggled with weight my entire life. The only time I wasn’t on the plump side was when I exercised for hours a day, before I had any real responsibilities in life and I was able to do so and only had 2 meals a day. This was through teenage years to before having children. Right before having children when I stopped so much physical activity the weight piled on. About 14 years ago I was around 180. After having my first child I was 220, after that I continued to again now I’m at 307. I did start this process in 2013 and backed out immediately, I definitely wasn’t ready then and wanted to do it on my own. Well I’ve failed,

I don’t feel like I’ll be able to loose it on my own as the last 14 years I failed. I’ve lost some but always put it back on plus more.

Has anyone backed out and regretted it? Should I just do it?