Hey all, I haven’t gambled since 6/11 because I have been broke. Didn’t realize it was almost the 1st and I’m gonna get paid soon so I’m finally drafting up all my debts and turning my cash to him. I’ve been going to GA meetings and that was the overall opinion for success.

I’ve actually done this before when I had my last windfall of cash and luckily, still have some to help with my debts. I still am so stressed actually confirming to him that the original money I kept is literally depleted. I’m a recovering heroin addict who has rapid cycling bipolar so luckily, this is nowhere near as bad as previous things I’ve had to admit to my dad. Aka, my life is not in danger as it was the last time I had to confess something to my dad.

I know he will help me, he’s accepted that, even if he doesn’t understand the disease of addiction, he understands that I suffer from it and that it’s life long and insidious. I will have 11 years off heroin on July 11th and there was about 6 years where I needed to be hospitalized at least once during the year for one issue or another. I’ve done four years now without having to be hospitalized so I’m pretty sure my admission will be somewhat expected. He’s known something was going on with me just not what it is. I just hate that it’s gambling because his mom ruined her life gambling. It was literally the only addiction my family knew about and that’s what’s making me so embarrassed. I saw my grandma gamble 16 million and die destitute after robbing her new husbands entire estate. She died broke, in a house my dad bought for her, with family that hated her for losing everything.

I just hate that I’m going to have to have him envision his mom when I do tell him. I guess it’s better than envisioning me dead in a ditch with a needle in my arm though. Wish me luck guys. Thanks to anyone who is in GA too as that’s been helping a lot.